Jan 9
2013

Weigh-in Wednesday – Frusteration?

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So here we go – it is hump day, or also known as Weigh-in Wednesday. Last week I was 155.9 and ready to kick the crap out of the scale for this week. I did stay mostly on-plan this week. I didn’t track seriously like I said I would…why is this so hard to do? Regardless, my food plan was very good this week!

Exercise – super excited here because hubby let me buy a treadmill on Sunday!! I used my Christmas bonus gift cards from work and that store had a decent one on sale. No, it’s not the top of the line or anything, but it is everything I need it to be and will make running in Michigan as a full-time working momma a heck of a lot easier! So, after not being able to workout since the end of the summer due to my shoulder, I ran/walked on it Monday evening & it felt AMAZING to sweat again! I only got in 2.3 miles but I know it’s gonna take some time for me to work back up to my “short” runs being a solid four miles. Tuesday morning I got up early and only did 20 minutes on it – my shoulder was quite sore & I’m being honest with myself on not pushing & overdoing the shoulder recovery. But, either way, I got in some exercise & felt GREAT! 

Then, I stepped on the scale this morning & it was up…..

0.4 from last week but up 1.4 from yesterday morning? What? I was instantly upset. I sat there going back through my week trying to figure out where I had gone wrong. 

But, then I told myself to chill, tomorrow it can be better. Maybe I’m just bloated, maybe it’s my body getting used to working out again, maybe I consumed too much sodium. 

But, maybe today I can just do better. Maybe today I can REALLY TRY to get all my water in. Maybe today I can try to go for a little walk on my treadmill (depending on my arm – so far it hasn’t been a very good shoulder day – you wouldn’t believe how every move you make impacts your shoulder joint/muscles). Maybe today I can track my food seriously – not the little chicken scratch way I typically do it.

That darn number on the scale holds so much “weight” on us. There was a time in the past I would have stepped off that scale & said “Screw it! My on-plan choices aren’t working anyway.” Then, I would have spend the remainder of the day consuming way too many calories! Yes, that number is important. It’s important to me and to my health. It’s a guide that gives me constant feedback – feedback that at times makes me want to pick up the scale & smash it into a million pieces while other times I want to kiss it. But it doesn’t define me. I’m not happy with it this week, but it is what it is. It has me confused. But, I can never understand why sometimes it goes up & sometimes it goes down so I’m gonna say that next week it WILL go down and today & tomorrow, I will do better.


Until Next Time
~krisha~

Jan 4
2013

New Year…New Goals

It is the start of a new year…is it time to make new goals? I will not call them resolutions. Resolutions are made to be broken in my eyes! That would be setting myself up for complete failure.

Goals, I like goals. Everyone should have a goal, something they are working towards. What are my goals for 2013? I don’t have them completely figure out quite yet. Such as the title of my blog, I am a work in progress!

Here is what I have so far:

Become a better mom: I need to spend more quality time with my girls. Stop the laundry, it is going to be there tomorrow….in fact there will be more there anyway! I am talking about the time spent playing board games, watching their movies, dance parties, the simple fun things they love that I often claim to be too busy to do.  Some day they will no longer want to dance with me and will be dancing with boys!

Here’s a picture from their super adorable concert the other day! Like they are completely adorable?!

Saving $$. It’s time for me to grow up financially. It is time for me to develop a budget and actually stick with it! It is time for me to learn how to save money and stop wasting it away on seriously stupid stuff that we do not want or need. This is the year where I will start paying down the debt we have on our loans!

Fitness. Get serious. I will tone this body this year! I will run my half-marathon in October. I do need to sit down and develop a calendar of races to keep myself going once I can actually start to run again! I will achieve my fitness goals this year. It is time to stop talking and start doing!

Eating. Time to do it better. I know that realistically I would probably not succeed if I said I wanted to go all clean eating. However, it is time to cut down on the processed junk we eat at home. It is also time for me to start planning meals out ahead of time and cooking at home. I mean, come one, I have 800 recipes pinned on Pinterest….I would say it is time to start using what I pin as opposed to just the act of pinning!

Be a better wife. Isn’t that the most obvious & most important? I used to think my girls needed to come first. That was until I read somewhere recently that my relationship with my husband should be first – some day my kids will move out of my house & it will just be the two of us. I want us to still be amazing.

 And I must add one family picture in too….because we are adorable! Don’t you think?!

So here I go. This is what I have so far. These are my goals. Yes, I do need to sit down and make them more specific and make them measurable to some extent so I can eventually jump up and down when I achieve them. It will take me some time to work out all the details….again I am a simple mom who is a work in progress….

Until Next Time
*krisha*

Jan 2
2013

My First Weigh-in Wednesday


Here we go…a New Year! See ya 2012! That year was not a super healthy year for me! I struggled for half of it above my Weight Watchers goal weight & back to paying at meetings! Totally NOT cool! I had some struggles – shoulder surgery in the first part of November & from summer on had to stop running due to the pain being so awful. However, I should not have allowed myself to use that as an excuse – um…Hello, you can still focus on eating the right foods! But I didn’t. 

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So MOVING on! I’m doing my first ever link-up with Erin & Alex for Weigh-in Wednesday to keep myself more accountable! Last Wednesday my scale read 154.4…this is what I saw this morning:

Ugh! Really? But what do you expect when you consumed six beers, or maybe eight, okay fine, more than that for New Years Eve! Luckily, consuming a LOT of water yesterday helped my scale somewhat this morning. But, I am really over the self-sabotage. I do this every weekend. So good during the week & I spend the weekends ruining it all! DONE! If I really want to get to my goal weight, I need to make some true lifestyle changes – so here we go!

My plan for this week to make certain next week’s scale is lower:

  • chug my water! I’m seriously SO BAD AT THIS!
  • Track, Track, Track! Why is this so hard? I have proven to myself in the past this makes a huge difference! 
  • Move more! Now that I’ve been cleared to start doing some exercise by my surgeon I’m ready! Obviously can’t do much with my right arm, but the rest of my body can move darn-it!
  • And the little weekly challenge by Erin & Alex – minus the planks (shoulder is not ready for those)

So I have my plan, I’m ready to rock! I will be kicking the crap out of my scale this week! Just wait & see! 

Until Next Time! 
*krisha*

Nov 5
2012

TODAY!

Do you ever say this……

Tomorrow? Tomorrow I will do that. Tomorrow I will work out. Tomorrow I will plan my meals. Tomorrow I will go to the grocery store & buy some fruits. Are you like me & always seem to have an excuse for everything!

The problem for me is that when I push a workout off until tomorrow….
when I wake up that next morning I look in the mirror and hate how I look. 
Or maybe it is hating how tight my clothes are. 
Or that stupid number on the scale. 
Or in the summer time where once again I want to hide myself in my swimsuit just like I did last summer when I had vowed to myself that “next summer I will NOT feel like this.”

Well, today, I am going to work out. I am going to no matter what excuse I can find later. I do not mean I am going to do five minutes of sit-ups & count that as my activity for the day. 
What I mean is, today, I will sweat.

And, right now, when I say tomorrow I will sweat….Well I mean it.

Because:
I want to like the reflection in the mirror.
I want to see a picture & think to myself, “Damn, I look GOOD.”
I want to be proud of my hard work.
I want to prove that hard work pays off.
I want to get healthy & live healthy to be a role model.
I want to live life in the moment, not sit on the sidelines trying to figure out how to hide myself.
I want to show people I can do anything I set my mind to.
I want to prove to myself that, Yes, I am worth it.

So true

Tomorrow, I want to be better than I was today. 

Until Next Time,
~Krisha~

Oct 30
2012

The Weekend Self-Sabotage….AGAIN

My name is Krisha and I like beer. I do. On weekends I like to drink a lot of it. However, once I step on the scale Sunday or Monday morning, I hate beer & I hate myself.  I look in the mirror with absolute disgust in myself. I’m mad, I’m disappointed, I’m sad, I’m upset. 
It’s a very vicious cycle I appear to be on for the past few months. Two weeks ago, I was so close to getting back to that lower decade of numbers on my scale – so close I could almost taste it. I was so close to wanting something I have been working on again for so very long.  Now, here I am….up above 5 pounds from there.
Why? Well, you see, I am pretty much on track during the week. I’m staying very close to my recommend intake of calories & drinking more water than I have in a while.  Then, the weekend arrives. I drink lots of beer on Friday and then even more on Saturday. Not to mention there are always some special weekend foods, such as pizza. Sunday….well I typically am not feeling fantastic so I eat the day away trying to settle back down my stomach. 
Yes, it’s time for an adjustment in life. I think I really need to step back from the beer for a while. This weekend I am already planning ahead – I know Saturday will be a dinner out w/ my husband’s family. I will drink a beer, maybe two. But, I think that will be my limit for the weekend. 
I do know I cannot cut my beer out forever. I mean, I could, but I don’t really want to. But, right now, if I really want to get to my goal weight, I need to cut it down. I NEED to end this vicious cycle I am on right now. I want to hit that weight. I need to focus on that right now. Once I hit maintenance, I can work it back in.
My ultimate goal is to look at a picture of myself and think I look incredible. I want to see & feel proud of myself & what I have accomplished. I look in this picture from this weekend & think I look like I weigh 160 instead of what I do. Ugh!
Okay, so here I go. Here I go for this week. I AM GOING TO BREAK THIS CYCLE! I am going to start to REALLY lose this weight. On your mark, get set, GO!
Oct 10
2012

Ugh….Craving a Workout!!

You know that saying, “You are only one workout away from a good mood,” do you believe it? There are so many quotes out there motivating you to get that workout in, and yes, several that I believe to not really be true. This one, I’m finding out very fast, is true.

This spring & summer I was training for a half-marathon that I should be running in 11 days. I worked all the way up to 10 miles. I love running…..my high school self would have NEVER believed that statement! I love the quality time with myself. I love the music. I love the time to think. I love the energy, that high I get. I love the challenge. I love the accomplishment. I love releasing stress. As much as I love being a mom, I also love not being able to hear my girls fight or whine while I am running. What to do when suddenly it is taken away from you?

I am scheduled for shoulder surgery on November 13th. I am doing physical therapy for it and dealing with a constant everyday pain currently. It hurts when I run, it hurts when I walk fast (as in fast enough to be considered a workout). My body is seriously CRAVING a good, sweaty, intense, kick some *ss workout right now. Ugh! I honestly feel so down in the dumps, my energy level sucks (which could also be related to the somewhat lack of sleep I’m getting due to my arm). I always thought I did the workouts just because I wanted to lose weight……huh? I guess it is true what “they” say, you learn something new everyday. For me, it’s learning something new about me everyday lately.

Until I can find a workout that I can do without horribly increasing my daily pain, I guess I will keep watching those points values, those calories, and focus on my food choices….but seriously!

Until then, I will just keep pacing down this road of mine. I am not going to lose sight of the progress I have made so far…. I will keep kicking some *ss one way or another!

Oct 2
2012

The Start….

So here I go again….I have started probably five blogs over the past few years & I never do a darn thing with them after posting a few times! BUT – I NEED it this time. 

I need a place to come and unload, a place to write my goals, a place to cry, a place to laugh, a place to lift myself up, a place to brag about my family, a place to write about my daily failures, a place to write my successes, and even a place to list the daily excuses I give myself!

Let’s be honest, with as much time as I can spend on Facebook and Pinterest in a day while at work, I should have time to post in a blog, right? What shall I post about? Umm…easy….life! Starting with my weight loss…my healthy lifestyle.

I swore OVER & OVER to myself that it would NEVER happen to me. I would never gain back some of the weight I lost….well maybe a few pounds, but never this much. I would never hit that higher decade of numbers again. I would never get back to the place where my self-confidence and self-worth hit low and I found myself staring in my closet every morning thinking, “What can I wear today that will hide my body?” I swore it, but here I am. From my low on Weight Watchers to today, I have put back on 15.2 pounds and have not weighed in free at my meetings since June. Why? Why did I let this happen?

I got lazy, and not really in fitness. I was training for a half-marathon for most of this time frame. But, I did get lazy in my food choices. I stopped thinking about what I was putting in my body and I stopped thinking about how much I was putting in my body. I will be successful all day at work, head home for the evening and completely blow it. I really cannot figure out how I have let myself go this far off the track. Now, I cannot seem to get myself back on track, I cannot seem to get over the anger at myself. 

But, it is time. It is the start of it now. GET OVER IT! You screwed up, you are not perfect (as much as I think I might be at times)!!!! I need to go back to knowing and believing that I am worth it, I am worth spending time on every day! 

My goals are to finally get to my real goal weight, wear anything I would like in my closet and not hide, walk around self-confident, feel good about me, set an amazing example for my girls, be healthy. There are going to be so many challenges that jump in my face (such as shoulder surgery in November), but I always give the advice to others of “keep on truckin’ on.” So, for once, I will live my own advice and get out of my own damn way! 

So here we go, here is to the start of my blog, the new start of me, a better me.